A great many years ago I gave a talk to a women's group that I titled Don't Waste the Miracle. At that time I discussed how precious life was and how none of us at any time should ever take it for granted. I used as an example a precious little baby girl that was born on christmas day at only 26 weeks gestation. She weighed just over 1 pound and fit in her mother's hand. She survived , miraculously , with love and amazing medical care and now she is a happy, healthy , super smart teenager.
I had my own very personal lesson exactly one year ago. I was driving to visit my mom in Ottawa after having stopped off in the small town along the way that my daughter Rebekah ( she doesn't seem to want to be called Bekki anymore) goes to university in.
It was beautiful weather and I was enjoying the drive when I was going through a small town. Suddenly I noticed a pickup truck pull out of a pizza joint and they made a quick left hand turn right in front of me. I didn't have anytime to avoid hitting them so I decided to at least hit them square on to distribute the force of impact evenly.
You can see what happened. Mine is the once lovely red car that was written off by the insurance company after that accident. If you look really closely you can see the box with pizza under the truck. Those kids were really upset about loosing their lunch and also about wrecking someone's parents truck. Although my car was badly damaged I walked away from this accident with absolutely no injuries, not even a muscle ache.
I had the car towed back to my daughter's university town, talked with the insurance company, rented a car and continued on my way to visit my mom. I really felt other than a little inconvenience and delay that really there had been no consequence to this accident for me but I later found out that this wasn't exactly true.
True there was no negative consequence other than having to find myself another car. I ended up purchasing exactly the same vehicle but a newer model. I really felt it had proven itself in the collision test.
What I came to realize over the next weeks, months and now almost one full year since this event was that somehow it changed me without me even knowing this at first.
I started to become more aware of things especially visually. I felt like I had been given a new set of eyes or at least an occipital cortex through which to interpret what I was seeing. I started borrowing my daughters camera ( I didn't have one of my own then)
I fell in love with photography, mainly because it seemed to be the only way I could share with my family what I was seeing. I have always found it difficult to find the words to describe things well.
I felt like I had been trapped under ice but now the ice had melted.
Everything appeared fresh and green not matter where I looked. I saw beauty everywhere.
And patterns where I don't think I was aware they existed.
My heart was opened to a deeper care and concern for small living things.
At the same time I started to be creative everyday. It started with little things like making wonderful gingerbread cookies and ornaments last christmas.
I have made so many wonderful things this past year and every day I have new ideas that pop into my head , sometimes at the strangest times for things I want to make.
Life is so wonderful and nature so miraculous. If I have one objective in writing this little insignificant blog it is that I would instill a sense of wonderment in each and everyone of my readers to go out into their worlds and start to notice the things that most people don't even see. Look far away at the horizon and savour the beautiful sky that is painted for you every day.
Then look across the road or along the roadside when you are driving or walking.
Take notice of the colors in nature.
I have been really loving the reds I have been seeing this week, accentuated by the pure whiteness of the newly fallen snow.
Nature is a gift no one needed to buy or make but we should be thankful for it.
It asks nothing of us in return but we should want to protect it.
I have been wanting to write this post for a very long time but today it seemed to crystalize in my mind and I had to share it with you. It has been a wonderful year . Thanks for listening.